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2010-10-30T08:25:00.000-07:00

hmm.. I guess things just turned out this way, unfortunately..
i can't exactly truthfully say I don't want it this way.
In a way, i feel a lot more relieved, less pressurized you could say.
I'm sorry, though, if i unintentionally offend you.
I just don't really want to keep getting angry or hurt by you anymore.
So, instead of bursting out, it's a lot easier to just retreat into this cold shell.
So sorry...

AH! long time never post..
soon physics and geog paper is coming!!!
SCARED!!! never really did very well for these..
JIA YOU!!

2010-08-13T23:39:00.000-07:00

Why does it seem like nothing I do is good enough?
That nothing I do can make you trust me more, trust me enough.
Did you really have to compare me?
That was like hitting me below the belt.
You know I don't like it.
You really know how to hit my raw nerve.
You really know how to make me feel guilty enough to do whatever you want.
I'm sick of being manipulated.

Well, just the many ups and downs of life as usual.
O level english oral coming up!!!
Worried, worried and more worried!!!
It's for o levels, so if I screw it up.... the consequences are too terrible to think of.
Haha! Never mind. Gambateh!
Something really funny happened yesterday, AND i learned how to play happy birthday on guitar!!
weehee~
haha, sorry little high now.

2010-08-02T07:14:00.001-07:00

hmmmmm.... my amaths seems to be deteriorating.. ALOT
slightly worried.
Well! I'll just work harder, do more practice..
JIA YOU!!

2010-07-30T04:27:00.000-07:00

Mood's been down a couple of days.
I think I know who my real friends are already.
They just don't know it.
And those who think are my friends may not necessarily be so.

Anyway, I hate it most when ppl ignore me,
I'm not saying this in a way that I want attention and if i don't get it I'm angry.
it's nothing like that/
I don't like it if for no reason you ignore me.
Like i keep calling you, but u dun reply.
Then afterwards you expect everything to still be fine.
I think that's just selfish, and it's as though the whole world is centered around you.

I also don't like how you ignore when it's convenient for you,
then pay attention only when you want to.
I don't like being treated as some toy.
I have feelings too.
I have my own life too.

*end of ranting*

breathing IN, breathing OUT

2010-04-10T07:17:00.000-07:00

well, I just transferred my laptop from living room to my room.
The signal is SO bad.
When I listen to the music, it will lag.
LOL! It's quite funny sometimes.
It will suddenly stop, then there is an uber long pause.
Dots..
Getting quite frustrating though.
I caught the flu,
the whole family is down with something or another.
We'll survive, Thank God.
I felt quite accomplished on Friday.
I didn't go school,
But i followed the timetable^^
I studied too!!
Mwahahahhaha....
Don't call me nerd!
It's the O's this year.
Quite pleased, finished the a maths notes
Studied the new chapter so I could do the workbook.
Yay! Anyway, it's Sunday tmr!!
Time to meet God!

2010-04-03T07:27:00.000-07:00

Hmmm...
Nothing much happened these two days.
Just really happy to be able to wake up later.
A few days back, I got sore eyes.
ON BOTH!!!
I was a terrifying sight.
I woke up and bedraggled and blur.
After shuffling to the toilet, I realised i couldn't open my eyes fully!
They were swollen and as I tried to pry them apart,
felt very very...puffy.
Lol, I felt like someone punched me in the eye or something.
Anyway,both were swollen shut so I didn't need to go sch!!
Yay for me~
Spent the day lazing about.
Finished homework and studied geog for a while.
It was all quite funny.
Turns out Hui en, beatrice and sudar all smsed and called "me"
Forgetting that I had switched numbers with my brother.
My brother ended up getting frustrated with the numerous calls and sent them my new number.
Hilarious!!
Anyway, thanks to all friends fro your concern XD

2010-04-03T07:21:00.000-07:00

Look, I know you are trying.
So am I.
But,you know, after a while, it's kind of obvious you've given up.
Even if I try, I'm getting nothing from you.
So, don't go all self-righteous on me.
A moment of tiredness can ruin a week of cultivated understanding.

It isn't easy.

2010-03-30T04:54:00.000-07:00

My chinese tuition teacher doubts my ability to get into a jc.
it is really a large blow to my self-esteem.
it's increasingly difficult to attend her lessons.
For one, she is biased to guys.
She told me herself, she prefers to teach guys.
Furthermore, she has many stereotypes.
She thinks all girls are over-sensitive.
Just because I looked super tired today,
she thought I was going to cry and said so in front of the entire class.
Imagine my chagrin.
I really can't stand it.
Sorry.

2010-03-19T15:29:00.001-07:00

i can't believe I'm awake at 6 am on a saturday morning...

2010-03-19T04:37:00.000-07:00

It doesn't mean that if I don't talk to you,
I'm angry at you.
It doesn't that if I don't talk, neither should you.
It doesn't mean that if you sing,
I will forget every wrong you did me.
Please. Try to understand.
Try to understand that if I remain silent,
I might be wanting you to ask me about my day.
Try to understand that if I am quiet,
I might want you to show you care.
Try to understand that sometimes,
I can't always be thinking about and for you.
Try to understand I need loving too.

There are very few people in the world that listen.
I happen to care to listen to others.
Yet, if you keep telling me the same things over again,
I might lose interest very quickly.
If you constantly tell me things,
that imply how good you are,
how much better you are than me, and expect me to
constantly praise you,
do you not think I have any pride left?
That you are subtly putting me down and damaging my self-esteem?

Do you not know that you can be very selfish?
Do you not know that you hurt me when you claim you care,
Yet you show no interest in my life?
In my worries?
I thought I found a wall to lean on,
but that wall crumbled beneath me.
Why do I always seem to be taken for granted
and I can't rely on anyone much more.

I'm not saying I'm not totally at fault.
I'm not saying I didn't do anything wrong.
But I'm only 16. I'm learning.
Can you please understand?
Lord, please help me.

2010-03-15T07:04:00.000-07:00

Whoop-dee-do!
Today, we had ELDDS.
Yeah, I admit it, I like going for CCA.
Whether or not this seems weird to all you CCA-haters, it is true.
I don't particularly think that hating a CCA is cool, yeah.
I'm mean, if you hate it so much, why do you join it in the first place?
Teehee~

Anyway, I'm not sure what I'm supposed to be right now.
Reason I'm saying this is because, people keep expecting me to be what they want me to be.
[Anyone understand what I just said?]
LOL!
Pretty confusing, but that's the truth right there.
I don't really think it is necessary to conform to other people's ideas before you can be their friend.
Like this song I heard, "All or Nothing"
If you can't accept me as I am, then there's nothing much I can do.
I don't think I want to change to suit your ideas.
Ever since I thought of this,
I realise I've been doing it too, trying to shape others.
SO time to CHANGE!!!

Have anyone of you ever met someone who is really.....
You know....
Like....REALLY irritating?
Not the temporary disturb-you-for-the-moment-irritating.
But I-feel-like-it-so-I-will-disturb-you-whenever-and-wherever-I-want-and-you-better-not-complain-irritating.
Wow.
I know I have.
Maybe, they have an insecurity complex and want to lay some sort of weird claim over you so you won't get snatched away.
Or maybe, they want to become more closely bonded through this.
I'm not even sure how.
Point is, I'm really tired of it.
My PLANs:
#1. IGNORE!!!
-weehee~ This plan is fun. But not permanent. If you ignore people whenever they irritate you. You're not going to be much fun.
#2. RESIGN/BEAR WITH IT"
-This is very hard on you, both mentally and emotionally. One day you won't be able to stand it and go ballistic!
#3. STAND UP
-Yup! This might not seem very good. There is a possibility that this "friend" might "not friend" you anymore. But, I find this is the most true to myself and very healthy for my emotions.

Of course, this is for me. Different people, different methods, k? We certainly shouldn't explode at every trivial thing. We also had to learn to adapt and accept. Give and take. So...ADD OIL!!!

2010-03-13T06:45:00.000-08:00

Hey all!!
Today, I went PRAWN fishing.
AHA!
I caught a STUNNING total of.....ZERO prawns!
hehe... Thankfully, my father and brother made up for my incompetenence by catching one prawn each.
Which brings us to a total of 0+2=2prawns for our family!!
YAY!

Anyway, I learnt two new things today.
#1. Worms are FASCINATING.
#2. I have witnessed the DEATH THROES of prawns.

Scary, huh.
We got some worms for prawn bait and they were... wait for it.... ALIVE!!!
Wriggly, squirmy, delightfully alive!

I couldn't bear to watch as people cut up a worm.
I only saw it trash around wildly and curl up against itself in pain.
My heart really went out to it.
The worst part is, as I was given a piece to stick onto the hook,
IT WRIGGLED! As I stuck the hook through that piece, it still wriggled in pain!!!
Gross...
Then how did I get to the conclusion that worms are fascinating?
Simple.
I "saved" one.
I pulled it out and cleaned dirt off it as best as I could.
I could actually see its blood pulsing through it.
I was awestricken.
The blood surged through the vessel that I could see.
When I touched it, it pulsed faster.
It slowed when I let it alone.
It was really amazing.
Sadly, I had to let it go after we were done.
I'm trying hard not to think about its fate.
It and I shared some real biology-related memories... [sigh]

Moving on, the DEATH THROES of a prawn.
It's actually pretty frightening. The prawns we caught were placed in a plastic bag.
Out of water, they were dying.
They kept jumping at first. Then they lay still.
I thought they were dead.
After a while, when i had let my guard down, those treacherous creatures in the bag started WRITHING!
I got the fright of my life.
Their actions were a lot more DESPERATE..
After a horrible short moment, the prawn gave its final thrash and settled.
Seeing this really affected me.
The suffering of this creature, its desperate jerky motions as it trashed for the last time.
The DEATH THROES.
Seriously, I think I'm just buying from the wet market from now on.

2010-03-13T06:03:00.000-08:00

So... Today I was kinda thinking ( the mind thing that we humans do sometimes)
Why do people not respond sometimes?
I used to think that it was because people couldn't hear me.
Well, that was easy, I raised my voice.
Boy, you should have heard me.
" HEY! WHAT"S THAT?"
Shockingly, they still didn't reply!
So I thought, maybe they don't know I'm talking to them.
"HEY!(insert name) DO YOU KNOW WHAT'S THAT?"

hm. Turns out that neither was the problem.
I used to get a lot of angry looks. It was a really puzzling time in my life.

Then I realized it! It was a 'eureka! ' moment!
They were shy!! Perhaps they aren't brave enough to reply!
Well, after that I kinda felt bad about trying to force them to communicate with me
when they looked so unwilling.
So, well, I just thought I spare them the agony and stop forcing them to listen to me yabber.

Hm. Now, I'm not sure. It seems that they occasionally want me to spill my guts.
Yet, at other times, their response to me is lukewarm and I become very uncomfortable.
Time for more hard thinking...
The human mind is truly complicated, if only I could figure it out.

For all I know, this 'silence' thing could all be some code,
designed to 'speak louder than words'
If so, I haven't found it.
Haha, wish me luck in trying^^
If I figure it out, I'll be sure to tell you all.
And we all can live in perfect silence and harmony. XD

Right now, I prefer to speak out loud.
Makes things easier for the rest of us.
I know how frustrating it can get when someone refuses to respond or look you in the eye when you are talking.

2010-03-10T04:16:00.000-08:00

ah... so bored.
haha, today kenan was super funny.
during the symposium, kenan and hui qin played tic tac toe.
then the method they use to win SUPER funny.
kept laughing.
then kenan started drawing. then he drew a "$2 note"
then tek hsuen kept on complaining we use too much of his pen ink.
so after that, kenan take the two dollar note and pass to tek hsuen saying,
" take this $2, go buy a new pen."
hui qin and I laughed until stomach pain.
hilarious!!
oh, and i guess using "PANG" as my class tee name isn't such a good idea
ppl might call me "pang", which means fat in chinese.
hm... see if i can change it to "TALL"

2010-03-10T04:11:00.000-08:00

hmm... sometimes things doesn't always go as planned.
but you know, it all works out in the end.
today, there were many things that frustrated me.
but i prayed, and i guessed that helped quite a bit.
Thank You, Lord.

2010-03-10T04:09:00.000-08:00

THE PAINTBRUSH

Author: Unknown

I keep my paint brush with me
Wherever I may go,
In case I need to cover up
So the real me doesn’t show.
I’m so afraid to show you me,
Afraid of what you’ll do – that
You might laugh or say mean things.
I’m afraid I might lose you.

I’d like to remove all my paint coats
To show you the real, true me,
But I want you to try and understand,
I need you to accept what you see.
So if you’ll be patient and close your eyes,
I’ll strip off all my coats real slow.
Please understand how much it hurts
To let the real me show.

Now my coats are all stripped off.
I feel naked, bare and cold,
And if you still love Me with all that you see,
You are my friend, pure as gold.

I need to save my paint brush, though,
And hold it in my hand,
I want to keep it handy
In case somebody doesn’t understand.
So please protect me, my dear friend
And thanks for loving me true,
But please let me keep my paint brush with me
Until I love me, too.

2010-02-12T05:35:00.000-08:00

yay! went out with candice today.
went out with beryln, yu ting, hui en and si jiun the other day.
Finally, i'm able to buy new clothes. i think i've been reusing the same clothes for eons...
Haha, bought a dress today.
keke, saw jem's dress too. the one from cache cache.
Anyway. cny is coming.
We won the 2nd place for claass deco!!!!
haha, pineapple tarts here i come.
and i just discovered ppl in my class who can really plat guitar super well!!!
sorry, this is a rather disorganised post.
cos i'm really tired.
i post cos keziah wei told me my blog has not been updated super long...

2010-02-10T04:15:00.001-08:00

I rather own a speck of dust in heaven than millions of dollars on earth.

2010-02-06T06:55:00.000-08:00

I don't understand what I did wrong.
I went back.
I wasn't that late.
He came back later.
Yet, you look at him and smile.
And you look at me and frown.
You ask, no.
You interrogate.
You probe.
What did I do wrong that he did right?
Is it the fact that I try and he doesn't?

2010-01-08T02:16:00.000-08:00

1st week of sch just ended.
To say that it was tiring would be an understatement.
After months of lazing about at home,
working hard is REALLY hard XD
It seems like even my fingers can't type properly now.
Woah, today had eldds.
Hmm... was fine.
Hehe, today we played loads of tricks on jie lin!
She SOOO naive!!!
There was the trick where we say that if your hand is bigger than your face that means you can get cancer.
Then when we said that, Jie lin went, " Oh no!"
HAHA! her eyes became SUPER big then she put her hand to her face.
Haha, ah yan totally tricked her lor.

Oh, today during Eldds, super hariz popped by^^
he looks so relaxed ler!! unfair.
Haha, and sherrie has totally been having fun.
she shot me with a water gun!!!
-gasps-
hehe, all in all was quite a super week, all things considered.

2010-01-01T04:02:00.001-08:00

New Year just didn't start out right.

2009-12-21T07:48:00.000-08:00

hehe, finally decided to blog.
This blog is pretty much dead, so I'm just blogging... for the sake of blogging.
Recently, I returned from Cambridge.
It was so extremely awesome to say the least.
Surprisingly, the part I enjoyed most was the teaching parts.
The teachers there are very engaging, it was very fun learning.
Of course, we all made friends with our school teachers who came along on the trip,
[not to mention to various unglam pics we got of them XD]
Anyway, the holidays have so far passed by amazingly fast
and I now need to rush to complete my dusty homework[IF I can find it first].
Christmas is coming up and I haven't gotten presents for ppl!!!
OK, so wishing everyone a merry christmas XD
See you next time, people~

2009-10-24T07:08:00.000-07:00

I just read a really interesting book called The Girl Who Could Fly.
IT was unexpectedly nice to read.
After reading the book, I was surprised to find that it had not won any award.
Anyway, the story was roughly as follows.

It started about a girl who could float when she was a baby,
and learnt to fly when she was a kid.
Her parents disapproved strongly.
Her naiveness and innocence caused her to show her talents before the villagers.
It was a shock for them, reporters came to look for her.
In the midst, a woman offered her a chance to study at an institute
where such "special" children were educated.
So began her journey.
There were only a select few in the institute,
their abilities reanging from super-genius to telekenisis to super strength.
Piper, the girl, was special, even among them.
Her ability was rare.
She settled into a routine and at the woman's request, stopped flying.
Conrad, a super-genius, bullied her at every turn.
However, things were not quite as they seemed.

Of course, I will NOT tell the ending XD
Haha, but, I think not everyone will enjoy this book like I did.
FOr one thing, there's no romance XD
Perhaps I felt as I did because I was listening to some very fitting music at that time.
I felt the book really captured the feelings of the character.
A keen sense of justice, friendship and almighty courage are very real.
Furthermore, it shows that facts and smarts aren't everything.
I LOVE THIS BOOK!!!

HAHA, but another very captivating book was THE HOST by stephanie meyer.
That book was amazing.

2009-10-14T01:01:00.000-07:00

hmmm... draftblogger seems weird today. 0.0
really, gone haywire?
anyway, today was physics and emath
i would say, it wasn't too bad.
I think i have really done the best I can and i really don't think i would mind if i fail.
cos i really did what i could alr.

2009-10-11T23:58:00.000-07:00

blahblahblah...
haha, today just blogging for the sake of blogging.
I listened to a song today.
"When you believe"
SOOO NICE!!! haha, goosebumps came out on my arm.
i think it relates a lot to God.
Perhaps that's why this song was used in the movie the prince of egypt.
XD
LOVE IT!
haha, truthfully, i feel weird.
I think, i don't really learn much.
I really prefered it when we had a different teacher.
It was a lot more.... engaging.
Plus, i don't really liked to be touched.
Haha, i will feel like you are treating me as a kid.
hmmm... nvm ba.. wad to do?
I DO still look like a kid...

2009-10-09T05:57:00.000-07:00

Let me tell you all a very funny nightmare i had.

But first, a little background.
When i was young, my brother liked to catch insects and put them in a clear box.

-Beginning-
(in my room)

I felt an ant on my arm so i pinched it, reached behind me and put it in the box.
the box was at the edge of my table. I didn"t really look to see the box. I just opened it and threw the ant in.

Then i went to take a closer look.

There were quite a lot of small insects inside. It was quite interesting.

Then i saw... two HUGE crickets squatting near the closed door of my room.
They were roughly half as long as me and about knee height.
I whirled to face my brother, who was sitting on my chair with some people around him. and asked, " Are those yours, kor kor?" I vaguely remember my face being horrified.

My brother took one look at the crickets and said, " Oh shit! They are hostile!"

I turned back to face the room. That was when i noticed two other insects...

One was a BIG brown tarantula-looking spider[but less hairy] that crept close to the ground.
The other was... I can only say, unforgettable, in a bad way.
It was waist high, with black legs and face, and a light blue abdomen, with white stripes. its face was curiously flat, almost human.
I backed away, it advanced and turned to face me.
I rushed near my bed, while my brother shouted,"NO!"
The spider scurried after me.
Crazily, I suddenly had a chopstick in my hand.
i used it to beat the spider .. o.0
it paused, and breathed a cloud of blue gas at me.[ i registered a look of horror on my bro face]
I held my breath scrambled up to my bed.
to my horror, the brown spider was on it
and i barely escaped having a bite on my foot.
Frantically, I looked to my room door, hoping to get out.
The crickets were in my way.

I remembered they were supposed to be hostile.
but they looked perfectly harmless to me,
they were peacefully crouching on the floor.
Then one of them turned and fixed me with a bright beady eye.

And bared its fangs...

-End-

And i woke up in cold sweat... HAHA, i thought it was quite funny after that XD

2009-10-09T05:39:00.000-07:00

so wad. wad if i want to be silly? huh, wad is it to u.

i dun really care.

im a teenager for goodness sake.

am i supposed to be so good and "responsible" and solemn as you?

as if you are.

pls think.

if u really think that way, then treat me totally like that.

not halfway, as and when u feel like it.

look at your own behaviour ok.

before u start critizing others.

im gonna burst. i already have.

so wad.

it is not like you would know.
it is not like i would let you know.
it is not like you would really care.
im not talking about whether u cared if i burst.
sure you would care.
you would think its scary.
but.
i dun think you really want to know the reason.
to really know.
thats why ive given up.
given up talking.
given up trying to tell u stuff.
do you even know wad i have to go through to even try to tell u things.
do you know how we feel when u ignore us, then get irritated when we ask further.
do you even know the feeling?
well then.
sorry, sorry, sorry.
for causing so much trouble in your life then.
Restricted.
I try so hard, but i dun seem to get anything.
i dun seem to be doing anything.
Its as if i wasnt even there.

2009-10-08T02:46:00.000-07:00

Don't contact me through my hp.
It has suddenly gone into some teenager stage where it completely ignores my commands.
SO SAD!!! It doesn't respond when I press the button...
It happened suddenly...
Aiyo...

Haha, today smth happened.
Affected me quite badly.
The UK trip price increased.
Cos now the taxes increase.
I have no idea why they didn't book tickets earlier...
Anyhow, was quite low.
I'm trying to think how I might still make it.
Hopefully my parents will still allow it.
It's a once in a life time thing..
I'm probably NEVER gonna be able to see cambridge again...
pls. i really hope i can go.
i will pay for the excess..
be it by working or by saving...

2009-10-06T02:27:00.001-07:00

shucks... totally forgot username password
for chem blog...
hope dun need do anything on it..

2009-09-25T03:23:00.000-07:00

hmmm....
these few days HAVE been tough.
My throat was so sore.
I lost my voice.
haha, the first day, it was just hoarse.
I think it sounded very sexy XD
very man lor.
Then the next day, i totally lost it.
I went about with a notebook.
Lol, when i wanted to talk to ppl,
i used it.
haha, i'll upload pics of it one day.
It was pretty funny,
it felt weird not being able to talk much.
tiring too.
i so wanted to talk.
but couldn't D:
haha, the second day i hired sudar as my translator XD
turns out she can lip read quite well.
SHe was my loudspeaker XD
thx for that.
haha, anyway, i'm much better today,
thx to stuff my mom bought for me and the
4 strepsils justtin gave me,XD

2009-09-23T03:33:00.000-07:00

It is really tiring to keep a blog..
Haha, SOO sad!!!
No one visits anymore XD

HAHA!

Anyway, here are some pics from church trip XD

I LOVE the words on the mirror, very nice!!
But it blocked shifu D:

Then this is the pic of me and shi fu :D

Haha, we went to the arts museum to see the dea sea scrolls. It was quite interesting. They were preserved from super long ago. Anwyay, We saw some that were handwritten book from the bible!!!! IT was AMAZING!!! i didn't ppl could write so neatly! haha, but the content itself was quite dry. And we only got to see a few fragments of the actual scroll... Not the best exhibition, i would say.

Later, we took lots of pics XD haha, it was loads of fun

2009-09-20T18:37:00.000-07:00

OH MY!!!
my blog is so...dead!!
haha, so i'm kinda updating now XD
i fell sick for a little while ytd.
But i'm so much better today!!!
i think i have grown taller too XD
i measured it on my cupboard

2009-09-07T00:57:00.001-07:00

Things aren't always as bad as they seem,
look to the bright side and perhaps,
your perspective might improve.
I'm really sorry to the people I've offended.
I know [for some of you] the problem lies with me and not you.
But i can't seem to help it. I'm trying though.
So smile XD
Try to tolerate me for a while

2009-09-07T00:55:00.000-07:00

There was a time, when I was on a bus,
with hui en,
and she said smth super funny.
She had to speak in english and i had to speak in chinese.
And she speaks SOOO slowly in english.
SUPER FUNNY.
Anyway, we saw a onion on the bus...

it was... o.0

Can you see it?

HAHA, this looks a bit wrong, cos there's a girl standing in front.
But this is the clearest pic.
SO weird, why is there an onion on the bus?

2009-09-05T07:33:00.000-07:00

Let me tell you guys a VERY funny story XD

There was a girl walking down the stairs.
Being the clumsy klutz that she was,
She fell.
[this is not the funny part, don't be sadistic]
While she fell,
All she thought was, " This is embarrasing"
After falling down that short flight of stairs,
When she got up,
She turned behind and saw some people looking at her.
She blushed, ducked her head and........
SAID SORRY TO THEM!
crazy, yes/ no?
haha.
leave you to guess who that girl is XD

Just because I don't make a big deal out of things...
Doesn't mean it's ok.
It hurts.
Inside.

2009-08-29T05:33:00.000-07:00

lalala, hmmmm...
a but sian-ed lor.
today went escape theme park,
but it was so ________
like a lot of rides closed,
and then i got motion sick [ first time in my life]
then the person was being difficult and dun let me ride the go cart
she say i too short.
irritating can,
does it matter?
i can press brake can ler ma.
must press the brake so long meh?
make my leg cramp some more.
after cramp liao then still say i can't play...
SIAN LA.

Anyway, i got a very weird feeling while on the viking.
all the keziah wei's fault D:
HMH!

2009-08-26T06:26:00.000-07:00

you never even made the effort to listen,
to understand.
Why did i think this would change things?
Please get your facts right before trying to order me about.
Why.
This facade,
This fake appearance,
I dread it,
i'm being driven to the edge.
Can't you see all i want is a listening ear.
Must i always be the one who listens?
Must i always be the one who bottles up emotions?

push and contain those feelings.
keep them inside.
pressure builds.
Don't let it explode.
Not one slip.
Keep up the appearance.
Whatever.

2009-08-26T06:09:00.000-07:00

ARGH!!! I can't sign in msn!!!
i don't know why.
firewall, checked.
Connection, checked.
Password,checked and double-checked.
WHATS WRONG?!
so frustrated

2009-08-15T02:05:00.000-07:00

ok, I finally got around to uploading some photos.
this picture is a picture of... candice? *gasp*
wad IS she doing?

hm.... she's only sharpening colour pencil XD

haha, and this is ivan being carried by justtin

and then jie lin being disturbed by them XD

some random pics of me candice and karen

2009-08-15T01:46:00.000-07:00

I'm updating my blog due to request by Karen Ang Mei Yi of 3e2,
*stops here to glare at said person*
hai... I still have not completed chem AND emath,
not forgetting bio...
why would i have TIME to update D:
haha, just joking!!
anyways, i was feeling kinda frustrated just now,
Cos of elearning.
At least it was better than last year with unreasonable time limits.
This year was a LOT better.
wad's with the chem blog o.0
lol. well, it was fun though..

2009-08-06T05:04:00.000-07:00

wow, I think that the scholars are super stressed?
cos today i asked zhongxun if he was worried for the emaths test.
Then he said no, I asked him why?
Then he said, I don't care.
I was shocked,
Then he said, I lost bio file, wad is there to care?
Like very seriously!
I think that the school put too much pressure on them.
Just losing a file makes them so worried...
I really feel sad for them...

2009-07-29T04:33:00.000-07:00

I seriously think ~~nuggets~~ margaret rocks!!!
she's so super ~~retarded~~ funny!!
XD
Hah

2009-07-29T04:29:00.000-07:00

i thought we were getting better,
I felt less irritated with u.
Then you had to do that.
You showed your true colours again,
and I always forgive you in the end,
and I always get betrayed and hurt after that.
Nobody really wants to know what I feel,
they are all busy telling their own stories.
Let them.
I have the Lord God to tell my sorrows to,
He takes on my burdens and to worry is needless.
I LOVE my God!!!

2009-07-28T03:24:00.000-07:00

HAHA, I think I'm going to change blogskin ler,
it feels kinda boring...

Today was ok,
moody sometimes but tried to be cheerful^^
Tan Hui En is SOOOOOO funny!
haha..
Today we had emaths test, physics tests...
worried that I might fail,
but, oh well, it's over, i might as well concentrate on the common tests..
Beatrice was super funny,
she explained the sine rule until can die lor XD
but i realised that she is actually a very good friend indeed,
I often realise how people treat her sometimes,
but she doesn't really get angry,
she picks up her spirits and moves on,
she really has a righteous mindset too.
She is not one to look on while others get bullied.
I'm really glad I have a friend like her,
let me learn to appreciate her.

Went home with Ah juju today,
quite funny,
we were reminiscing about when we were k1/2
super funny.

Sick and tired of being interrupted,
Of being cast aside just like that,
Of being ignored,
Of being disregarded.

I'm going to change all of that,
I'll stand up for myself,
There's going be a change, poeple.
Teach me patience, Oh Lord.

2009-07-17T21:12:00.000-07:00

yay! it's a saturday!!!

saturdays totally rock!!

Let me list the reasons why...

1] SLEEP LATE!!

2] Can jog in the evening

3] Can do leisure activities XD

4] Can use MY comp.

bad things on saturday...

1] HOMEWORK!!!

and that's about it...

haha^^

i'm supposed to meet sijuin, karen and beatrice online

to discuss our geog project.

i totally forgot about it acutally,

then si jiun sms me say she will be late.. LOL

then i just went on,

none of them online XD

i think beatrice forgot lor,

then i think i forgot to tell karen =X

haha, but it's ok^^

2009-07-15T01:37:00.001-07:00

i have these really weird feelings,
i tend to do really weird stuff,
i feel really depressed,
i think really badly of myself..

Well, behind everyone there's always something darker,
Well, you're never going to find out if you're not trying,
Well, let's just give everyone the benefit of the doubt, k?

I think everybody should like everybody

I think this is so true,
I wish this was true,
I hope it will come true.

I'm sick of false apologies
of false identities
of false images
of false truths
of false words.

2009-07-13T06:42:00.000-07:00

oh wow. chem simply 'rocks'.
rock until i giddy ler
i've never wanted to do anything but this project
my life would be blessed if i needn't do it
i'm sure it would contribute greatly to my knowledge.
contribute to killing my brain cells.
well, it's so easy to understand and digest.
crumple the paper and eat it.
let me give you an example, follow this link
and regret it.
http://www.freepatentsonline.com/y2006/0018852.html

I'm sure you will find it enriching and reader-friendly
i'm sure you won't follow the link and lead a happy life without seeing it.

Enjoy^^ i'm off to continue my pursuit of knowledge
help me, i'm dying off brain overload

2009-07-13T00:16:00.000-07:00

haha, ok, my friend is at my house today,
she's 18 O:
LOL, but she's pretty :D
She's from US, i think.
Haha, I was good friends with her younger sister.
Then they migrated to US i think.
;P
She's still here, but she doesn't know I'm typing this XD

Today was,well, kinda draining.
Although, we went home much earlier,
[ Ssp, and all after school activities are CANCELLED (woohoo~)]
But, there wasn't any banding at all today.
Ian and Evil Anh didn't come today...
Both down with fever I heard.
WISHING THEM GET WELL SOON~
Oh. and Mr Lee said that Kenan and Ivan Bok both are better,
But they are staying at home to recover!
wow. Hope for their sakes', that they don't have to do moodle homework..

AND SOOOOO sorry to Ivan, Candice and whoever else,
for pangsehing you guys.
Karen and I, went home first.
sorrysorrysorry!!
:DDDD

2009-07-11T02:53:00.000-07:00

lala,
totally killing my blog.

I'm not very clear about the H1N1 thing,
Is it really that serious?
Things seem to be getting worse.
I heard it was because there were death cases.
But don't people die of common flu too?
Hmmmm....

Hahaha,
Went to my primary school's friend house today,
it was fun^^

Oh, and I had to go tuition on friday..
Darius wasn't there.
So sad, no one to talk to.
He's staying at his school for some programme I think.
Like a boarding school.
Then that Brandon sim,
He stopped coming to tuition for so long..
Aiyoyoyo...

2009-07-07T04:36:00.000-07:00

ya, i realised i haven updated my blog in eons.
whew,
ok,
i seem to be doing fine?
*checks myself*
yeah, definitely fine XD

slept over at keziah's house on sunday,
wow, tired,
she almost took me as a bolster,
quite unusual?
but fun XD
keran is kinda cute,
makes me feel better towards my younger bro.

2009-06-29T05:03:00.000-07:00

lalala, first day of sch...
wad can i say?
it was tiring.
definitely lack of sleep like dat.
i yawned at least 5 times in edward wong's class...
wow.
at least, there wasnt any hw.
BUT they already started stuffing new info into our "holiday-refreshed" brains.
tired sia.
Gonna eat,
finish up holiday hw
then SLEEP

2009-06-21T23:55:00.000-07:00

Why is it always like this?
Like he always gets his way.
And everybody always makes me give in,
but then they say,
it's ok, you can dun give in,
but then i get guilty
but why should i?
it's mine, i've already let him for so long.
Why cant i use it without feeling guilty?
I dunno,
I'm really frustrated by this.

2009-06-18T05:41:00.000-07:00

haiya, holidays pass so fast ar...
i dun like.

2009-06-08T01:39:00.000-07:00

ok, on the 4th i think,
went to malaysia,
first to this rainforest place that was
COMPLETELY infested with bugs,
ants, mosquitoes, flying ants, spiders, giant ants,
houseflies, oh and guess what? MORE ants.
But it was still ok, generally.
There were birds in the cages there,
rabbits, an iguana, chickens and roosters,
a goose freely roaming the grounds
and a flea-ridden dog.
I'm not saying this because I don't like dogs,
I ADORE dogs, but this one kept scratching itself.
Pretty obvious it has fleas...

Anyway, we saw this bird, and is a mynah i think,
It could wolf-whistle and all,
quite cute.
But I saw it's droppings on the cage floor..
Totally acidic-like. See.
It like burnt a hole in the floor of the cage. Kinda scary..

Look at this lazy iguana,
but it;s claws are super sharp..
Looks lethal up close.

Yeah! The row of rooms in our resort.
We had one room,
I had to sleep on the mattress on the floor,
Wakaka, it was ok.. a little too stuffy and cold though.
The place has a swimming pool,
and ping pong tables..

view from the rooms,
we have to climb up stairs to reach the rooms

lalala

This is the bridge.
It leads across a measly stream,
but on the other side, grows long grass, weeds,
pretty nuch wild.
Except for the camp-like stuff they have there,
you know those things they have in camps that is supposed to help develop teamwork?
But there are like thousands of sandflies and mosquitoes there,
a whole swamp of bugs ambushed us while we were exploring.
So, we managed to get more than 5 bites in as many minutes.

I kinda found this sign funny,
yet scary...

MEANDERING RIVER!!! wakaka
Geography!! the depositing... transporting of sediments XD

This is a really amazing thing.
We were on the way to the jetty to go to the kelong.
Then we saw this truck,
and it had two unusual passengers,
Elephants!!
It was quite funny,
as we traveled along in the car,
I could see the elephants occasionally raising their trunks.
To snap a few leaves from the trees along the road,
To wave away a few flies,
or [who knows?]
Maybe, they were even posing for us,
the delighted audience sitting in our cars,
looking at this wonderful, unique sight,
A brillant distraction from the long, boring journey.

2009-06-08T01:36:00.000-07:00

LOL
I was reading a book today,
and I saw my NAME!!
so funny!!
i took pics of it..

MY NAMe <3

2009-06-05T05:47:00.000-07:00

came back from kelong trip early.
cos while we were fishing,
my mom got a new "piercing"
she got a fish hook caught on her eyelid,
it must have hurt a lot...
but she was super brave lor.
I think they put some alcohol thingy,
then it numbed the pain,
cos she kept joking abt it.
haha...
then we cut short our trip and took speedboat back to island,
so we can go back to s'pore hospital.
ahhh... the speed boat make my phone wet,
i think it short circuited,
now no image shows up on the screen...
haiz..
post more ltr,
dead tired now

2009-06-02T18:54:00.000-07:00

ok, camp is over,
it was fun while it lasted,
but i'm kinda glad that it's over XD
it was really tiring,
i'm definitely blacker,
yay!^^
haha, i'm leaving tmr to go to a kelong,
fishing ar fishing...
wakakakaka,
i lazy upload pics from camp,
maybe next time.

someone is being cold sometimes,
nice somtimes,
i think i know why,
but i can't do anything..
i WON'T do anything,
cos it's being very unfair to me.

2009-05-27T04:58:00.000-07:00

like lalala,
so sad, mr lee confirm not teaching 3e2 le..
SADNESS!!
haha, anyway,
still can see him in sch..
HOLIDAYS ARE COMING!!
woo hoo~
wakakaka

2009-05-25T06:12:00.000-07:00

BLEH!!
i keep seeming to forget ppl's bdae,
I forgot shifu's and si hui's bdae,
nvr go and send them bdae sms.. D:
then I just read yi kai's blog,
candice gave him bdae pressie ?!
I was so shocked,
how come I dunno yi kai's BDAE!!!!
LOL, so now i wish him and those i forgot
HAPPY BDAE!!! wakakakaka

2009-05-25T06:02:00.000-07:00

HAH! got a new bed, and new coat of paint in my room^^
before this, I had a plain wooden bed frame.
This is actually brown, and REALLY high for me...
haha, really^^

This is the coolest part I think,
it can actually be raised up to store things inside,
it's like so much easier, and less chance of dust settling on the things inside^^
but it's kinda troublesome to store my guitar inside,
cos if i want to play it,
I have to lift up the whole heavy thing
[train my muscles XD]
and take out the guitar..

still.. it's new^^
the novelty hasn't run out yet^^

2009-05-25T05:48:00.001-07:00

ok, I kinda forgot when I took these photos..
It's not anyone we noe tho,
let me explain...
You see, on the mrt, we saw this man holding a baby.
[ sooooo cute!!! chubby and all XD]
the the baby kept grabbing the handholds on top.

see he kept laughing and screaming to hold the thingies

it was really quite cute...

ok this was taken on the day of our preformance,
the crime prevention one, near the cc,
since we performing, we got free coupons,
bought candy floss on a stick XD
SWEET

haha, see that dent? my first bite XD
after a while, it started "melting"
because of " Singapore's humidity" as Eatsham put it,
LOL

Oh, and this pic was during sports carnival..
look closely,
you will see Mr Lee Moh Choon, surrounded by girls XD
so funny lor!!
It was a super hot day, and he was wearing a long-sleeved shirt -.-
Su ann and her friends were totally entertaining and being entertain by him lor..
pretty cute..
Missing mr lee lor, heard he might not be teaching us anymore,
He taught us and this mid year, 3e1 and 3e2 got like MSG[average grade] of 1.0
meaning, 100% distinction, for emaths,
for amaths, 1.smth, almost all distinction...
haiz..

2009-05-21T03:33:00.000-07:00

I FEEL SO EVIL!!!
Today, my younger bro came home later than me,
So, I heard the doorbell ring.
I knew it was my bro, couldn't be anyone else.
I heard him crying and fussing about smth,
I wasn't sure what. I'm ashamed to say I didn't think much about it ..
Cos usually he comes home and I thought he would be frustrated at some homework or smth.
So later, when i passed by them,
I saw my bro's head.
Like, whoa.
It was swelled up at one side. One HUGE baluku at one side of his head,
It kinda made him look unproportionate.
Now, I know you all might think me evil,
But after seeing him, I exclaimed, and started to laugh.
You see, I know my little bro,
he's a little overwhelmed with seeing mama again,
so he starts crying,
It's perfectly natural.
Since I've been living with him his whole life.
And I'm his older sister,
I kinda started laughing and making fun of it to make him laugh.
Haha, it actually worked.
By the time he bathed, he was totally changed...
He went into the bathroom sniffling,
and came out smiling?
weirdo much..
haha, but it was still kinda big..
He looked in the mirror and started laughing...
LOLs...
Anyway, my mom is bringing him to the hospital to have it X-rayed,
cos it's so humonguous-ly huge... haha

2009-05-20T01:25:00.000-07:00

Today was the day. People were destroyed or raised up on this day.
Best of luck.

JUST JOKING!!! wakakakakakaka
Today was the release of most of our results..
Pretty scary. It was in the auditorium, I didn't feel that cold.. Maybe it was the adrenaline-.-
Haha, but, I didn't do as badly as expected!! Nothing below C5XD
And I got A2 for chinese!! woohoo!! grats to me ^^
But I didn't really do well for the sciences so far, let's see about bio.
I hope it's alright...

Haha, today, after got back english paper,
it was the last paper of the day, I was feeling kinda high,
so I was jumping about, like the unglam kid I am,
then I was near the front door of 3e1, and I saw Ivan,
he was walking towards the back door, so I knew he was going to look for karen and me,
so I ran towards the back door from the front,
[he couldn't see me throughout my journey^^]
then nearing the back door, just as I saw him,
I took a 'flying leap' and jumped near Ivan,
at the last second, he turned around and saw me,
his face scrunched up, and he said "WAAAAHHH"
HAHA!! THAT WAS SO FUNNY!!!his expression... priceless!!

2009-05-18T02:56:00.000-07:00

wakakaka. does anyone remember this tall weirdo?
haha, it's bran!! had, dinner at amk hub with candice,
and met him XP

anyway, today went to kovan,
took mrt with karen and ivan,
haha, took a pic of the reflection XD

see this very bad ivan
that seat is specially reserved for elderly, pregnant, blah blah,
then he see ler,
then insist on sitting there...
still look so happy,

this was when karen was teasing him XP

see, he's trying to look shocked that it's reserved,
but it look more like he's trying to eat the sign -.-

2009-05-12T22:59:00.001-07:00

ok, i was looking thru some pics,
plus some i took when i went to study at candice's hse,
lalallala

hardworking right XD

now she starts to go crazy

hm...

AHHHH!!!

now she has to disturb me,
hear no EVIL!!!

still trying to kick me!!

i've been driven crazy
by her..-.-

morale: we must strive to be hardworking like
this pic. XD

2009-05-12T22:05:00.000-07:00

erm... so yeah, chem...
wow, super easy lor!! sure can la XD [the opposite]
woah...siao one lor,
no exam mood at all,
totally wasted time on mcq,
well well,
next exam is e maths and physics, jyjy!!

2009-05-11T23:57:00.000-07:00

wakakaka,
i feel kinda happy,
even though i lost marks for amaths,
and geog,
but still, i noe i tried my best,
AND i know how to do the question,
is not like i never study and i dunno how to do lor.
is no time.
so overall i'm still quite pleased,
haha, plus, i prayed to God before i did my paper,
so i've to thank Him for helping me stay calm,
for helping me be able to do my paper,
hehehe^^
mr lee moh choon SOO funny!
when he make annoucement,
he speak so soft then have so many "ah" "er", that actually cant hear wad he
is announcing...
haha, during a maths sit beside zhongxun,
really quite stressed lor,
like u still doing and wracking ur brain,
then he finish ler and start packing up his table,
and that LTA oso, finish in 1h 30 min,
crazy one la...

2009-05-07T03:33:00.000-07:00

like super irratated,
got no mood to study lor,
then feel super sian-ed,
then my bro nth to do,
then kip on looking over my shoulder while i using comp...
super irratating..
gr!!!

2009-05-05T03:45:00.000-07:00

this guy is crazy....

2009-05-05T01:12:00.000-07:00

my hand...really hurts..
haha, today was english compre and ss.
i think actually it was quite ok,
the social studies...erm,
just dun expect too much yeah XD
cos the qn d) do u believe... that one hor,
i nvr refer to other sources at all,
haha,
i didn't really noe how to write,
anyway it's over, so hu cares!!!
let's just study for maths, geog and the sciences...
i love bio!!! whoo~
haha, oh ya, anyone can recommend me to work?
i'm looking for a job,
WITH pay,
pls pls, if u noe of a good job, pls tell me,
or even if ur parents need ppl to babysit ur younger siblings or smth,
i dun mind,
tell me as soon as possible, ty ppl!!

2009-04-27T05:08:00.000-07:00

wah wah wah,
napfa today, the system is quite horrible,
we ended up staying until 6+pm then can go home lor,
soo tired,
we actually decided to try and rush thru our napfa,
so that we might be able to attend the science cafe,
but it was too late and mr low didn't allow us in.
that was kinda disappointing... the topic was biology,
or marine biology, i think, to be more accurate..
well, i really hope i can listen to it, mr low said that they recorded it,
haha, i think i'm getting a gold for my napfa,
XD. >.< ok^^

i find it really irratating when ppl dunno how to give way on the bus...

2009-04-22T03:30:00.000-07:00

SUPER IRONIC
is like my younger brother said i'm a lousy sister,
right after he used my comp.
so too bad,
i'm not letting him use it anymore.
cos i'm a lousy sister what,
a lousy sister won't let him use,
sao i dun let him use lor,
so simple.

whatever.

2009-04-16T05:21:00.000-07:00

i think i took this after an om meeting,
i love ths look of the sky lor!

this one isn't as nice, but the colour is nice xD

this was taken while we were waiting to be let into the
audi for syf rehearsal,
was pretty bored.

i think i was trying to take the sunset,
but the bus moved too fast D:

2009-04-03T06:44:00.000-07:00

ok, today was kinda fun,
i think mr lee was kinda angry tho xD
cos i dun get what he saying,
that i kept on interuptting,
and anw, the eng lesson was funny,
qi yuan summarised 17 points in 60 words,
pro mah?
LOL,
anyway, had to stay back for OM today,
only ivan and i could stay back lor,
the rest of them had cca or smth,
haha,
then candicey pang pang came and helped out,
actually she and amanda had dance de,
budden candice had to do her hw,
then amanda wait for her,
then they see us paint,
then they felt it was very fun,
so they decided to help out..
so, paint paint paint,
so happy leh!
then they pon cca,
LOL
and...after amanda left,
candice and i decided to paint our hands with the leftover paints,
it was so shuang lor!

haha, one totally black hand!!

this was after we had peeled off as much as possible,
note the mess on the floor xD
we cleaned up, don't worry

me me! haha

haha, not really camouflaged?

2009-04-03T06:41:00.000-07:00

haha, had om yesterday,
saw darius koh!!!
haha, took pics with him,
two only tho,
we were kinda using the camera phone in front of mr ong,
then not sure if he would confiscate,
so hurry take then keep,

2009-04-03T06:23:00.001-07:00

ok, went to acs barker on monday, i think,
for syf rehearsal,
so cool lor xD
we got to leave lessons early,
haha, then after we left eng lesson,
then i walked by later to suan them xD
so funny,
i felt so sadistic la!
budden cos eldds is not a very prominent cca in my sch mah,
so the chances where we get to show off,
is so little!
haha, but it was a cool day,
some pics.

ah gu gu and ivan

haha, karen and sherrie!

some pics of ppl, crew in stage

lalala, messy?

er...look at eatsham's face lor!
so funny!!!
haha, then they all look so good frens hor xD

actually, i thought that this rehearsal was kinda a waste of time
except for the sound ppl,
cos i noe that crew actually didn't do a lot,
we mainly sat there looking cool XD
AND, after that, for the refreshments..
we didn't get anything to eat,
all the slackers,
they went to eat first,
while we still moving things out,
so when we got there,
no more food..
sian diao lor!
haha, my stomach was gurgling the whole way thru..

2009-04-01T04:12:00.000-07:00

ok everybody...
lesson for today:
always stay happy and friendly!
let me list the advantages,
1) people are more likely to be friendly towards you.
2) you will probably be well-liked
3) you won't develop too many wrinkles
4) your attitude towards life will improve drastically
5) people tend to trust you more
6) it gives you a good feeling
7) and a lot more!!

so everyone!
stay happy and cheerful,
treat your frens well,
dun forget to smile as much as possible XD

yeah,
today was an okay day lor..
jia you jie lin!! ah gugu,
get well soon hor!

2009-03-31T04:33:00.000-07:00

sorry ppl. put up with me a while,
serious mood swings,

am i transparent?
are my feelings totally invisible?
can u not tell if ppl dun wanna talk to u,
or want to talk to u?
i think i know why teenagers nowadays are more rude,
manners are sometimes a waste of time,
for example,
usually, if one person is talking,
somtimes another adult just cuts in,
as if the former has never spoken,
second,
some ppl cant understand hints or tactful remarks,
so what's the use?
thirdly,
sometimes,
no one really wants to listen to anyone?
or choose wrong times to talk..
in conclusion,
for ppl to get noticed..
they need to be loud and able to attract attention

2009-03-26T03:16:00.001-07:00

haha, ok, today was pretty fun,
but i was kinda tired ..
dunno why,
u nearly fell asleep in amaths and bio lor,
sian...
haha, but after that was more awake..
I CAN'T believe i forgot there was ssp!!
there was maths i think,
then actually not compulsory.
then i wanted to stay,
i forgot have!! and went home!!
AHH!!
haha, but it's also kinda good,
cos this is the first time this week i get to go home so early!!
haha, can study by myself!!
whoo~
haha, and roy lee is not a gentleman,
during english,
he kept stepping on my foot!
haha, i made his shoe black in return xD
anyway,
today was overall a good day =)

i drew this on my hand,
the eyes are actually moles on my hand xD
inspiration from xue baozhu!

2009-03-21T05:16:00.000-07:00

ok, haha, this is my shifu!! this was taken when we went to east coast park XD

haha, this was long time ago, er...on the way to karen's hse i think

TODAY~~ super nice wor, the colour..

haha, the rainbow super big, couldn't catch it all

nice nice rainbow! the sky was super pink lor

that time going home, saw the sky like this,
look closer,
it looks like it's spilt in two,
upper half is darker than the lower half

gap in the sky..

this one not as obvious i think

haha, i forgot when this was, but it is obviously on a car ride,
so a bit blur blur lar,
going quite fast

walking to tuition

i think this is nice, but my mom says not nice,
i wonder why?
i like the clouds in the sky

hehexD
sorry, had to change blogskin cos the other one had weird weird problem
and i really want to add in a navbar, anyone noe how?
tmr tmr have to go sch ler,
sianz...roughly completed my hw..
and acelearning is such a liar,
it says can reattempt the qns,
then cos i got careless mistake,
totally stupid de,
then ltr try to reattempt,
cannot...sian lors..

2009-03-20T20:46:00.001-07:00

what is wron with my blog?

2009-03-15T06:06:00.000-07:00

had church today,
seriously love them lor!!
and my datee<33
haha, she always must put her name like dat,
haha, i dunno why,
i really feel that my church frens rock,
i've been counting and relying on them throughout most of my life,
some of them i've known from young,
others i've known for many years,
and we are all one big tight-knit group,
haha! we might have our quarrels and fights,
but we still will stay together!!!
keziah rocks la,
haha, i love to talk to her!!
she is just super funny!!
and reaiah shifu is really good!!
i love her handwriting xD
anyway,
chuaenhui and me and reaiah is going out i think,
hopefully chuasihui too!!
cos we need to buy pressie for keziahwei!!
hahaxD

ok...oral is tmr..
scared guys?
my oral teacher is mr david wong,
wonder if he's ok,
dunno!!
aahhhh...
i wish there wasn't oral at all,
i'm trying hard to study,
but the temptation is too much,
haiz..
chionging out the chi compo now,
i must try to have better chi!!
help me my frens!!
haha, and ivan's grammar in eng will improve!!
jiayou ivanny yongyong, haha XD

2009-03-13T03:13:00.000-07:00

ok...today is like the last day of sch,
wa.. had to bring so many things home today,
my arm nearly broke la..
sian. there's so much homework lor,
i feel so depressed, like as if it's not holiday at all,

today's tuition was cancelled.
so couldn't go there to practise my chinese for oral..
my chinese is seriously very lousy lor..

2009-03-12T05:51:00.000-07:00

haha, ok, reaiah shifu said my blog very boring,
cos no pics at all,
so i now have to put in effort to include pics..
so these are some pics i dug up

qi yuan, my look-alike xD

this is either me and karen or me and shermaine,
i can't remember XD

look at the pretty girls!!

ok, this is a superly random pic of a diamond structure,
cos i was searching for a structure to use in OM,
then diamond is like a very strong material rite?
so try lor XD

2009-03-12T05:28:00.000-07:00

ok holidays are here,
as much as holidays can be,
as expected, tonnes and tonnes of homework are being piled on us,
especially maths.
of course, it's not that i have violent objections,
I know that this is to help us prepare for our exams and tests and all,
but still,
holidays are supposed to be a time for us to rest and recuperate
from all those days at school!
that's why they are holidays,
sighs...so sad..

anyway, today candice was super nice!!
cos i had a lot of books to bring home,
then i sai a lot in my bag,
but there was still a lot left,
and it happened that candice brought her bag,
the grey bag, that the school gave,
like grocery bag like that,
she lent it to me even though she brought it for herself actually
haha, thx candicey pangpang!!

2009-03-10T23:03:00.000-07:00

ok changed my blogskin,
i usually dun like the navigation ones,
but this blogskin is seriously nice,
so i couldn't help but use it=)
anyway, i forgot how to have a NavBar again..
nvm..

2009-03-10T17:21:00.000-07:00

ok, sry ppl,
my blog's gonna be abit dead.
can't be bothered nowadays to blog,
down with flu,
skipped two sch days..
sian lor,
i dun wanna fall behind on the subject,
hehe, so i'm kinda studying at home,
at least it's more relaxed..
and then have to get an mc,
so dumb lor,
is very expensive, to keep going to the doctor just for an mc,
budden, the sch say cannot have parent's letter,
i think that's just lame,
they must see the situation first la,
keep going to the doctor very expenxive leh..
not everyone is rich,

and i'm kinda sad,
cos i think i won't be able to go the uk trip ler,
why?
cos i can't afford it,
it's 4000 dollars..
with subsidy, it's still a hefty 3.4k
i dun think i can go!!
sob..i really wanted to go,
and i think i no time/too young to work,
so can't earn money that way,
sighs..

2009-03-04T03:41:00.000-08:00

argh...super sad!!
i dunno if i can go cycling with churchies on sat...
cos there's the service learning project,
then i can't make it on tues,
cos there's odessey of the mind,
so have to go on saturday,
meaning i probably can't go cycling
unless ce is in the morning so if cycling at night,
then i might be able to go..
haha, kor kor can't go,
he has camp or smth like that,
HAHA!
lol, think i might go obs,
see how lor,
today there was eldds,
not bad lar actually,
tacked the chair and all,
then went down and watched the actors,
they have seriously gotten better!!
we can win!!

2009-02-27T20:00:00.000-08:00

today, i shall talk about the goodness of my father=)
hehe,
cos i was mugging maths,
then ivan and martin was saying on plurk that isn't my geog test on mon,
then i not sure,
so i ask amanda toh,
then is really on mon!!
then i want to start studying,
then i realised that my geog notes and textbook was in sch!!
so i called candice,
good thing she say the sch was open today,
so i could go sch, thx candice!!!
anw,
i asked my father if he could like fetch me there,
i didn't really expect him to agree,
but he did!! whoo~
hehe, so went and took my geog notes,
met yuqi and micheele too=)
then while i was in sch,
then my father went to buy the taohui from opposite,
hehe, so now i'm home mugging geog and eating tao hui!!
yea!!

2009-02-27T19:07:00.000-08:00

Nicole Nordeman Why Lyrics:
Why?- Nicole Nordeman

We rode into town the other day, just me and my
Daddy. He said I’d finally reached that age, and I
could ride next to him on a horse that of course
was not quite as wide We heard a crowd of people
shouting and so we stopped to find out why There
was that man that my dad said he loved, but today
there was fear in his eyes

So I said Daddy why are they screaming? Why are
the faces of some of them beaming? Why is he
dressed in that bright purple robe? I bet that
crown hurts him more than he shows Daddy please
can’t you do something? He looks as though he’s
gonna cry You said he is stronger than all of
those guys-Daddy please tell me why, why does
everyone want him to die?

Later that day the sky grew cloudy and daddy said
I should go inside Some how he knew things would
[ Find more Lyrics at www.mp3lyrics.org/gIM ]
get stormy, boy was he right But I could not keep
from wondering if there was something he had
to hide So after he left I had to find out, I was
not afraid of getting lost So I followed the
crowds to a hill where I knew men had been killed
And I heard a voice come from a cross:

And it said : Father why are they screaming. Why
are the faces of some of them beaming? Why are
they casting their lots for my robes?? This crown
of thorns hurts me more than it shows. Father
please can’t you do something? I know that you
must hear my cry. I thought I could handle a cross
of this size, Father remind me why, why does
everyone want me to die. When will I understand
why?

My precious Son, I hear them screaming. I’m
watching the face of the enemy beaming but soon I
will clothe you in robes of my own. Jesus this
hurts me much more than you know, but this dark
hour I must do nothing. Though I’ve heard your unbearable
cry — the power in your blood destroys all the
lies, soon you’ll see past their unmerciful eyes.
Look there below see the child trembling by her
father’s side. Now I can tell you why, she is why
you must die.

2009-02-27T05:57:00.001-08:00

ok! this are some pics of the rainbow on wednesday i think!!
whoo~ this was taken after eldds at abt 5.30 to 6pm!!

so totally rocks!! the rainbow starts from the church, really touching!!
Jie lin and I was pleasantly surprised =)

close-up of the rainbow coming from the church

i was trying to get the whole rainbow, then ivan just cut across!!!
haha! waste my time.. XD jkjk

the "full" rainbow starting from the church!!

here it looks like it starts from the HDB flats...

it still looks so nice! this was when jielin and karen starting talking abt
why the rainbow was an arch and all... lol!

the other end of the rainbow

haha, jie lin was like waiting for us to finish taking photo,
then she hunched over her books to protect them from the drizzle xD

another pic!

portrait way up!!!
hehe, we really were like tourist like that, stand there and take photo,

anw, went to salvation army today,
to buy the costumes,
didn't feel like going initially,
budden still went,
hehe, ivan still remembered the bus stop lor,
then later we get down,
then karen started talking like vikki!
so funny!
she went all monotonous and glum,
like" oh wow, they built a stairs that led to no path.."
in that really flat sarcarstic tone,
hilarious!!
then we at first very awkward,
cos with our big bags and stacks of books,
it was really very cumbersome,
so we went and asked the counter if we could put our stuff down there,
then they said can, and let us out our stuff in the back room,
the ppl who went, ivan, jielin, karen ,sharon phua, ang xin yee,
gabriella, and me!! that's all i think...
then we went to look at all the stuff,
hehe..
they chose a really ah beng-looking shirt for cherp xD
then for jordy, i think the pattern is slightly better,
but both shirts quite big.. dunno if they can fit properly..
then for jie lin we bought a grey long pants and a pin-striped jacket,
hehe, she insisted on the pants,
cos it was very comfortable for her,
then the jacket was about her size and she looked formal enough in it,
so we bought it,
and the auntie was very nice lor,
she gave us a lot of discount,
cos we said that we do for school project thing de,
competition,
then she's like orh...
then at first the jacket is 20 dollars,
then me and ivan go bargain, say we on tight budget,
then she say she can give us for 16 dollars,
so we very happy,
then she said, later then count ba,
later when we get all our things then she will add all up and then give us discount,
she say probably give about 20% discount,
so i think the actual price was about $45,
then we only paid $36,
so cheap lor!
so kind la the auntie!
i think all the ppl there very nice,
they help us a lot,
haha, ivan and i keep going to ask them how much this cost,
how much that cost,
haha, then they very patiently check for us and all,
then after that when jie lin went to try on stuff,
then the counter auntie go talk to us ,
i think she very bored lor,
cos there also dun have a lot of ppl ma,
then i guess she dun have much to do =)
then see us friendly friendly one,
then talk to us lor,
then we were laughing at jie lin,
cos we wanted to take her picture after she change
to check if it fits lor,
she actually looked not bad,
but i still dun think the jacket and the pants match,
nvm, since she's comfortable in it,
she should wear it lor,
better than smth that's not comfortable on stage
yay! so fun, then we all went back home xD

2009-02-26T04:16:00.000-08:00

seriously feeling a bit low and depressed,
is there smth wrong with me?
i'm not sure at all,
i seem to be offending ppl left and right,
i can't seem to find the right things to say,
i dunno what to do,
i can't do things right,
i always mess things up,
if i try to cheer ppl up,
i end up making them irratated,
my heart really hurts,
i try not to offend ppl,
but somehow it happens,
i can't help it,
sometimes i feel like i 'm too easily bullied,
why?!
there's isn't anyone that i can truly confide in,
except my Lord,
i shall perservere..

2009-02-25T04:53:00.000-08:00

ok... feeling super tired..
like really really tired..
hehe, and sudar found a white hair in my hair today,
imagine that,
uncle enyi doesn't have any white hair, according to aunty wendy,
and i alr have!!! shows how stressed i am,
chem today was crazy,
so many qns dunno how to do lor!!
siao le
anw, me and karen was shortlisted for UK trip!!
so happy!
but must see how, if really can get thru all the way,
woohoo~
hehe, and now have to decide go OBS or sec 3 camp lor,
is like OBS is super fun!
budden sec 3 camp can like bond with each other,
and i heard it's at nacli,
which is super fun according to nuggetrito...so hard!!

2009-02-24T03:25:00.001-08:00

i seriously feel super tired nowadays..
dunno why,
haha, trying to cope with sec 3 life,

when i meet with mean, tactless, or insensitive people,
i wonder if that is how ppl see me sometimes,
i guess it's not enough to be good sometimes,
i think a truly good person
is a person that can treat both the attractive and unattractive well,
regardless of his or her mood, whether if it had been a difficult day or not.
i'm trying so hard to..
but sometimes it's really hard to stay cheerful
to help ppl with a smile

2009-02-19T01:30:00.000-08:00

pretty sian now..
is like there's so much homework.
and tests are coming soon,
and i still don't really understand a maths,
so i very scared that i might not be able to fulfil my promise to myself,
pls help me Lord,

anw,
my back hurts like siao,
i dunno why,
i think maybe cos of p.e?
i dunno la,
and then today had c.e,
very sian!!
cos i dun really like the teacher,
she treats us like little kids,
and today she said smth that made me even more upset at her
she said that the scholars were more polite to their parents,
that's why they are also called scholars,
this is realy aggravating,
i mean, it totally puts us locals down,
is she saying that us locals cannot be polite to our parents?
that we are all just teenage juveniles?
this is exactly the sort of things she say that makes us all dislike her,
i really don't understand how she does it,
making all of us dislike her,
we are sec 3, at least treat us our age,
stop treating us like kids,
then she also doesn't tell us what to do properly then she just aks us to do,
then is we don't do it properly it is all our fault,
then she will say like: "i thought this was the best class, you know, but whatever-ever la"
so irritating!!

2009-02-18T05:17:00.000-08:00

ok, using the comp for a SUPER short time,
cos my mom is using my comp to play her game,
cos my comp is super good xD
anw, i loved today, there was p.e,
and we played netball,
tho my team lost, it was fun=)
then there was eldds,
it was ok, crew didn't do much,
ivan, xavier and i went opposite to eat first..
i'm going bankrupt le lor,
must stop spending so much!!
haha, thx beatrice for giving me so much of your sweets,
anw,
me and ivan still helped with the costumes even though we
alr transferred to set,
cos set didn't have much to do,
we have to go out on saturday i think,
to buy the materials for set and costumes,
and ms kaur asked ivan, jie lin and me if wanted to go OBS,
yay! i heard it is fun!!
but jie lin dunno if she want to go,
i HAVE to convince her!!

anw, i just completed majority of my hw, and i'm feeling quite pleased=)
going to study more later,
why?
cos this sch is crazy and makes common test 1 and common test two,
only one week apart,
so we only get one week break before tests,
AND it is not really a break cos we have to study like siao
so that there is a possibilty that we can pass the tests,
at least for me,
cos i'm not naturally smart or anything,
so i've gotta work HARD!!!
jia you ppl!

2009-02-17T05:41:00.001-08:00

ok, now on msn,
ren jun's trying to explain to me amaths,
but i just can't get it,
haha, he is like frustrated xP

2009-02-15T02:21:00.001-08:00

haha, today had church,
super fun lor, i missed all my church frens!!
today's sermon was good, though i kept feeling super tired,
then after that i didn't get to eat goreng pisang during refreshment...
sob, haha, anw, as usual, shi fu and i sat at one table for sunday sch=)
then uncle kt always cannot pronounce my name correctly lor,
super funny!!!
and then shifu tried to offer me some choco,
then i said i dun want,
then as i said i dun want,
the choco drop on the floor..
LOL,
sorry shi fu!!
aha, then after that,
we were watching andre and jem,
oh ya! and zi yin came back from army today!
his hair is cropped close to his head,
so it's not exactly botak,
but it looks quite funny too=)

then after that when we were going home,
then saw aunty jenny at the entrance,
she had her vase of flowers ma,
then there was roses there that day,
so i ask for one, and she gave me,
is like real one lor!!
then the thorns sharp sharp de xP
i immeadiately ran to si hui date and gave her,
haha, cos i promised i will give her ma xP
lol, next time must give en hui too,
she look so sad la, that i never give her xD
haha, anw, we could suddenly eat lunch there,
so ate there lor,
wa..i love eating in church,
cos everyone bring smth they cooked,
then is super super nice!
aunty wendy cook the stuff always quite nice

2009-02-13T23:54:00.000-08:00

happy valentine's day everyone!!
haha, today i actually wanted to go out with sihui date
and reaiah shifu they all,
budden got my cousin's wedding so i couldn't go,
seriously nice lor the wedding,
just that i got no one to talk to,
then andre was being super emo,
talk to him he will scold me de,
then afterwards he became a bit crazy lor,
keep on hitting me,
and the bride's dress is SUPER nice lor,
then train was very long,
so nice!!!
wish them a happy life together=)
but my cousin, the groom, the vow he made very mushy lor,
like mushroom soup like that xP
haha, then after that just went home lor,
i had to wear that dress of mine,
i dun really like it anymore,
a bit uncomfortable,
plus my toe was injured, so i couldn't walk properly in those shoes,
that we girls wear to look nice but aren't very comfortable,
anyway, my toe is super pain..

haha, and i just got permission from my mom,
i am now allowed to buy my own clothes,
but if i bring back home and they dun find it suitable,
then i can't really wear it lor,
but i dun mind la,
it's also not like i will buy smth revealing,
although i usually wear boyish stuff,
i think i should buy some girl stuff too,
for formal events =)
haha, cos today, had to rush to find smth to wear,
cos all my usual clothes is super casual de,
hahaxP
missing my church frens!! i want to go out with them!!

feeling the stress of 3e2 lor,
i think i am one of the lousiest in class,
plus afte hearing ren jun talk about his marks,
i feel super depressed!
his marks like very good ler,
then he still say not good,
then my marks is worse than his...
sigh... i'll just have to try my best and try not to get kicked out of 3e2..
jia you jia you!!

2009-02-13T02:24:00.000-08:00

i dun really feel like doing anything,
woke up today with a sore throat,
lol, couldn't eat any of the chocos that ppl gave me
and mr lee so nice=) give us all flowers